Leadership

*inspired by jo's question of leadership qualities

what does being a leader mean to u?

i've had my fair share of it in secondary school.

and frankly, i don't think i'm much of leader material.

if there are other individuals that are capable of producing good, if not better results, why don't just let them continue on shining brightly?
they get to do the job, and get the name and prestige that comes with it.
whereas i can just sit back, relax and enjoy whatever we 'subordinates' get from the result

of course, if the person at the top is outright lousy and incompetent
and you're strictly better
then go for that post and make a change,
make a difference
make something better
to be birthed out of that position

being at the top, means extra responsiblity, stress
in a good way, it makes you perform spectacularly
the bad thing for some is that a breakdown can occur
or at the mildest sense, the actual tasks and responsibilities aren't even done

i've never asked for myself to be nominated for anything, nor have i rushed after position after position for self gratification or any such thing
i just somehow get it
and i'm happy i did
even tho i didn't expect it

i appreciated those times
as they have made me what i am today
i realise that being at 'the top' doesn't mean anything if you're not competent
and that sometimes, being ordinary can be surprisingly fun

i tried my best while i was at the top
and will continue to do so where ever i am
being exemplary, being ordinary
just playing your part in life in the best way

that's good enough

thinking back, i wonder if i've done a good job during those times
doubts abt my own performance plagued me regularly then
and occasionally the present
wondering whether the 'right' actions were taken

some people love me
some people dislike me
and some even hate me
*i think*

oh well, life goes on

Now??
i just wanna be a great medical student
and hopefully, a great doctor after i graduate!!

~~smileys~~