Realization

I was lying on my bed, couldn't get to sleep for some reason or another

Or maybe i was just putting into deep thought some of those fleeting lil pieces that slip through your mind once in a while

I realized

I really do want to go to aimst after all

even more badly than imu

I realized

that i'm looking forward to 'that' day more and more

even if it means leaving before the mid autumn's festival

I realized

I actually think quite a lot more than i thought i usually do

now that i'm putting some of it into words

I realized

Some things in life that happen are REALLY what The Lord wills for us to have

and that what we mere beings think/do

we will not be able to fight what He has prepared ahead of us

I realized

that it is truly Him that knows us the best

for sometimes

we ourselves do not

He made me see

the transition from primary to secondary education

and how i eventually came to love it

He made me see

how i had yearned to be strong

and went such a long way

for my pre-university education

He made me see

how aimst is what i truly want

There might be toil and turmoil yet to be endured

There might be obstacles yet to be overcome

There might be storms yet to be subdued

There might be ...

He made it all clear

that MY mind was already set on it

right from the beginning

Lord

is this what You want me to see?